How to get my life?

I forgot myself. Who am I. Because, last 5 year I can’t find my self. I was very ambitious. But at this time I am a big big loser. My family support my every time. What am I in my past and today what am I? I don’t have any answer of my life. When I go for do same for my family but I was done wrong. They wants to understand me but every time I present my self in the wrong way in front of them. Please suggest me how to get my life back again